Oh how lovely it feels to be at the end of the week and about to start the weekend. After spending many years working unsocial hours, I appreciate it so much. Plus my husband works a traditional working week so it’s not just me, it’s our weekend. I just love the feeling of a weekend, the freedom, the opportunities to do something special with those you love. The boys and I start it on a Friday and have our day together with no nursery or commitments. I try to take them out somewhere although today we’ve had a quiet day at home and that was good too. I’m making the most of my last year with both of them before our eldest starts school.
We celebrated our first son’s fourth birthday last weekend and I hosted a party at the village hall. I felt quite proud of myself as I organised everything from the hall hire, invites, games, food, decorations, party bags, etc etc. Only last year I had a meltdown en-route to his 2012 birthday party, when my only responsibility was to bring the cake. We were fifteen minutes late, couldn’t remember the way there, and birthday boy fell asleep in the car five minutes before we arrived. Plus I was still finding it difficult to be around a lot of people because of my anxiety levels. I try to keep things like this in mind to remind myself of how far I’ve come and how much more I can cope with and manage now (Read About me if you don’t know my story). Something that surprised me about the process of recovery from depression was the length of time it took to get back to feeling like ‘me’. I would say eighteen months is about how long it took, from being well enough to be at home to feeling good about myself. I also know setbacks are common, and it feels terrifyingly as if you are back where you started, although you are not. The tough times get less frequent and shorter lasting though thankfully and slowly the focus shifts from surviving to coping to enjoying. I just want to offer my experience for anyone that may read this and still feel like it’s a challenge that can never be overcome, to reassure that one day it can. I still have very difficult short periods of time – an hour or two here and there, where I would say I am vulnerable to presenting stresses, but, they pass too.
With only twenty minutes left to get this published, I have almost achieved another yet another goal – just my way of keeping myself motivated and inspired to stay psychologically healthy – my card-a-day challenge for this week. So here it is:
This stamp is Sugar Nellie ‘Little Farmer‘ that I bought last year at a craft exhibition as it reminded me of my son.
I would like to enter this card into The Sugar Bowl – Sugar Nellie Challenge Blog – #109 November – use your oldest Sugar Nellie stamp.
Thanks for reading,
Have a good weekend everyone,