Coronation St. – just a soap, but an anxiety trigger too

Finally a bit of frost! The boys keep wistfully eyeing up their redundant sledges, patiently waiting for the day they can take them out. We had a great time in the snow last year as it was the first proper snowfall they’d both seen. It kept them entertained for as long as their fingers could stand the cold, building igloos and snowmen, and even a snowdog à la Raymond Briggs. Will we see any this year though? It’s a pain when you are trying to get anywhere but kids love it so much, it would be a shame not to see any this year. Plus everything looks so beautiful and clean with a white coating! Well, until it turns to sludge and gets all over the hall floor…

This morning I managed my third bout of exercise since my renewed health drive of last week. I’ve built up slowly doing 1.3 miles on the flat, then another flat 2 miles and then finally 2.7 today back up the hill, round and down – the down bit slow and steady so as not to injure the old knees again. It feels good to be doing something, although it still takes a monumental effort to actually step out of the front door, despite knowing I’ll enjoy myself once I’m out. Not sure why though, does anyone else have that problem? Stunning views over the Yorkshire Dales help though:

Misty Yorkshire Morning - back down the hill and overlooking our house

Misty Yorkshire Morning – back down the hill and overlooking our house

Monday night’s Corrie was a heart-breaker wasn’t it? Although it’s only a soap, that scenario is a reality for far too many people sadly. I’m sure it was too painful for some to even watch. As you get older, you naturally experience more of life’s hard times and recently it seems there’s not a month that goes by without cancer affecting someone I know, love or have befriended at some point. It’s so cruel too. My heartfelt thoughts go out to all those suffering or grieving.

Absorbed in the Roy and Hayley’s dramatic scenes, I felt my anxiety trigger and I started to worry about losing my husband, or him losing me in that way. One of my obsessions during my postnatal depression was worrying that something awful might happen to my husband or the boys, to the point where I really couldn’t bear to have my sons away from me because the anxiety was so great. I would panic that my husband would be in a car accident on the way to or from work, so he would text me to let me know he had arrived safely (and still does). The negative thoughts become so consuming that whole scenes would play out in my head, including the part where I find out the terrible news and then feel exactly how I [think I] would feel in that situation. I’m sure it sounds completely bonkers to those that haven’t experienced anxiety, but to those suffering anxiety, it is so, so difficult stop the fear from paralysing you.

Now it’s a case of ‘old habits die hard’ and certain situations will always trigger anxieties for me, although I know I am very fortunate to have my physical health, and feel in a good place regarding my mental health. I am aware enough to recognise it and make every effort to rationalise my thoughts and distract myself, in order to keep the negativity at bay. Life is too short, that’s for sure. I found a helpful informative page about anxiety and disturbing thoughts if you are interested – Calm Clinic – Help for Panic and Anxiety Sufferers.

Finally onto my latest Card Therapy, this was a labour of love, as it is for my niece.

birthday card

The image is a very cute LOTV Sprinkled with Sugar stamp, coloured with Promarkers, enhanced with my own sprinkles – Stickles Star Dust, and mounted onto a die-cut lattice rectangle. I have also used LOTV Bear Necessities Paper Pad, plus some peachy pearlised card. I stamped and embossed the Happy Birthday wording with Papermania Copper embossing powder, and the same on the wooden heart embellishment. The wired netting is a change for me but I like it! I die-cut the ribbon tag and letters, and embellished the letters with Champagne Stickles – gorgeous colour! Finally I stamped the insert with a Forever Friends image.

I would like to enter this card into the following challenges:

Lili of the Valley Monthly Challenge – Anything Goes

Lisa.B.Designs Monthly Challenge – Anything Goes

Papertake Weekly Challenge – Bow Dies (I’ve used dies, unusually no bows today)

That’s all from me,

Much love

Emma x

My grandma – gone but always in my heart – The Gift of Memories

6 thoughts on “Coronation St. – just a soap, but an anxiety trigger too

  1. This is very pretty Emma, I’m sure Olivia will love it

    Thanks for joining our Anything Goes challenge – good luck!

    Anne x
    Lili of the Valley

  2. Gorgeous card Emma 🙂 the image is very cute and the colours and layout are fab 🙂 I am sure Olivia will love this 🙂

    thanks for joining us on the Papertake Weekly Challenge
    luv
    Lols x x x

  3. I love this card Emma! you have chosen beautiful colours, it gives the card a bit of a vintage look… and I like those embossed Happy birthday stamps! how do you get to do such a “clean” embossing? any tips? everytime I try to do embossing, I end up with little bits scattered around the image… never perfect! That netting at the back is great (I love all that stuff). I know what you mean about worrying that something will happen to husband and children, I’m the same! my husband travels a lot for work, so I’m always worried! although I don’t watch Corrie or any soaps, my head would go crazy with so many things happenning on them! I hope you are doing well, and keep up with the exercise, you are going to end up motivating me to start again… hugs, Mirella xx

    • Hiya M! You should know I am a perfectionist…There were two previous ideas for the top triangle, done and discarded! As for my tips – I use an anti-static bag over the paper first to eliminate the powder cling – http://www.handyhippo.co.uk/p524-magic-anti-static-bag.html then any stray particles that dare to mess up my stamping are removed with a needle tool! I have thrown away many an embossed image – I am obsessive! Not surprised you avoid the soaps, they are chronic at times. Corrie is in my blood though being a northern girl, I can’t bear to miss it, even when I know it’ll be sad!
      Not done any exercise so far this weekend, will have to be tomorrow…but only if this bloomin’ wind and rain packs in! Off to catch up with your blog xxx

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